Wednesday, June 11, 2008 @11:10 PM
zzzz. TIRED LAA. i duno why. lols. it's just been tiring. well, i did rather well for my 30cm sculpture. well, at least to me. i felt that it was nice at first. but after a while, i felt that it wasnt that nice after all. it's.. too. erm. predictable. even though the worksmanship was ok but there's not much of a meaning to it which makes it not too special after all. well, at least i've tried. cheryl's work was great man. it's a distorted house havig different textures on each wall.
ok, went for dinner with the class. apparently jun yong was having core meeting. at first i was like.. -.-" literally because i knew nothing about the meeting and yet they still demanded me to go back. (junyong said:"you'd better come back after eating") it's like. -.-" so nvm. i chiong my food then i went to meet them. its as no big deal actually because i found out that only th guys were supposed to meet. junyong wanted to meet me and dawn another time instead. but oh well. after talking and stuff.. i felt a bit bad for purposely shooting all my concerns at him just to vent my frustration. but anyways, it was gd that at least i got it off my chest. after the meeting, i somehow felt very. disconnected. perhaps it was because they were all guys. i dunno. but still. it didnt feel good.
i got reminded that xm said that i had no creativity and that i wun survive in design school. jy actually asked him to help me out. like come on man. the point is not whether i have creativity or not, it's whether you believe in me and that i can do it. if not, whether God can give me creativity. it was hurting. well, i scored rather well for my ideation. got about 24 5s, 12 4s and 3 3s. which is highly above average. it's really by God's grace la. i did my best and God did the rest. :D well, now i find myself stupid for even remembering petty things like these. come on la alina, who cares wad other poeple say. know you do your best can liao, no need to prove anyone wrong. SO, im content. :D like the bible said, godliness with contentment is great gain. so yep. i just wanna be desperate for the things of God and not the world. (: now install ms office and photoshop. :D
