Sunday, September 28, 2008 @9:21 PM
hmmm.. been real busy lately.. slept for 2hours on monday, 3-4 hours on tuesday, 4 hours on wednesday, 15 hours on thursday, 2 hours on friday and i almost died of lack of sleep. haha. had class chalet from monday to wed. it was fun la. haha. will miss MOI sem 1.1 T.T
been working real hard. making quality drinks is not easy. calling them out isn't easy either. once, i ended work at 1am and started work the next day at 8am. made super lot of mistakes. HAHA. den went for cell bbq.. was just stoning.. actually.. i've just been stoning for the whole week.. mary's going back to myanmar tmr. gonna miss her man..
gonna help pastor sauti-ha do the burmese Christian music video to be distributed in both Myanmar and Singapore for free.. gonna need a church crew. hmmm.. will end production in December so i'll be pretty busy till den.. frankly speaking, i have no confidence in myself for such a big production. what's more is that it's the frist Christian mass produced MV in Myanmar.. thank God for the privildge to do this man. my new cell is cool i guess.. but im just not used to it. hmmm..
yepp.. last thing.. hmmmmm. we've been frens for so long already and we've been through so much together. but ever since things happened and you've got more responsibilities, we've not been meeting up and we seem so far apart now. wad happened to our frenship and the times where we would just sit down and talk about our dreams and aspirations? where is that frenship and sisterhood that we used to share. i guess it's just my fantasy to have someone so close that we could share everything together. you know.. something like david and jonathan in the Bible. after all, there's no greater love than someone who would lay down his life for a friend. maybe after your Os we may get back to where we used to be.. i hope. till then, i miss you and i love you as a sister.
Sunday, September 21, 2008 @7:13 PM
moving to a new cell is great i guess. many thoughts are rushing through my mind.. it's just that i have so many things i wanna do and i dunno where to start. i wanna do so so so many things. and this holiday is definately not enough for me. it's like. monday-wednesday, go to class chalet. wednesday night, art of espresso class. thursday 8am-4pm work, friday 6pm-1am, work. man. must be superwoman. im gonna be so dead tired man. but it's all gonna be fun la. enjoy myself before i go to a new cell and get bombarded with responsibilities all over again. and yes, my "ex" sheep is HATING me. im serious. haha. so aiya. i can't do anything more can i? :/ so yep.. here's this quiz that we did in church today, called the performance trap.. it's good. PERFORMANCE TRAP - POP QUIZ
Remember, our fear of failure comes from the false belief that says, i have to accomplish certain things in order to feel good about myself. How affected are you by this belief?One way to find out is to take this quiz. This is just a simple tool designed for you to get a more accurate sense of how deeply you've been affected by wrong ideas about success and failure.Each of the following statements has seven possible answers. Read each statement and then write the appropriate number is the blank space next to each statement.1= Always2= Very Often3= Often4= Sometimes5= Seldom6= Very Seldom7= Never1. Because of the fear that I won't do well, I often avoid joining in certain activities.2. When I sense I might fail in some important area, I become seriously nervous and anxious.3. I get really stressed.4. I feel anxious for no real reason.5. I am a perfectionist.6. I have to defend my mistakes.7. There are certain areas in which I have to suceed.8. I get depressed when I fail.9. I get mad at people who do things that make me look like I don't know what I'm doing or like I'm stupid.10. I am critical of myself.Add up the score and interpret the Results.
If your score was:57-70: Congratulations! You are virtually free from the fear of failure.47-56: Good! You have a very small fear of failure. It may be only certain situations that cause you trouble.37-46: You have a moderate to strong fear of failure. It is likely that a good number of yous decisions are designed to minimize your chance of failing.27-36: You have a high fear of failure. Your emotional lows will almost always be a result of you fear of failure or the belief that you have already failed in some way. Nearly all of your decisions are designed to keep you as far from failing as possible.0-26: You have an overwhelming fear of failure. Experiences of failure fill your memories. You are likely depressed.If you ended up with a score that is lower than you prefer, don't panic. This isn't the final word on your life. Nearly everyone has struggled (or does struggle) with the fear of failure to some degree. But God doesn't want us to remain hurting and confused victims of the Performance Trap.SOOO.. yep. the Performance Trap is the fear of failure. wad this actually means is not that we should ENJOY or LOVE failing. but it's just that we shouldn't try to live up to other people's expectations. including our parents. i also got struggle la. haha. but we all have flaws and God is calling us to perfection. so yepp. if you find this interesting, visit us at The Conerstone, every Sunday, 1pm. CALL ME IF YOU WANNA COME. HAHA.super long entry.. was typing the whole survey out. but it really makes sense la. class chalet tmr. gonna be real fun. (: yep. i wanna spend even more time with God and i wanna draw even closer to Him. after all, God wants a relationship. meaning that He DOES reply us when we talk to Him. cool hur. 8D
Wednesday, September 17, 2008 @10:26 PM
hmmmm.. tmr, hand up assignment, present and it's the END of this semester. WHOOTTSS haha. cant wait to go for the class chalet as well as to genting with the class.. will miss this class la.. haha. but yep.. move on. been very tired. =.= and stressed out. and this ONLY happens at the end of the block where it is rush hour. haha. i heard that the next block would be even more packed. so... i pray and hope that it will get better la. haha. hmmm. NOT EMOING but wa.. today i jog.. no stamina sia.. like.. very demoralising mian.. the relay is coming soon and im not prepared.. just have a low stamina.. so i plan to jog tmr and friday as well. hehe. TRAIN and keep FIT. (: ok. now to burn my files to the cd and off to dreamland.. and a well deserved rest.. (: i need to save money. my myanmar trip is CANCELLED because my dear mother dun let me go cuz she said it was dangerous.. (she let me go last time den now dun go. so weird laa!!) den yea lor. but still save money. and she NAGGED at me for eating ICE CREAM saying that it's too EXPENSIVE and that i could use it for something better. =.= it's $2 macflurry. wad else could i buy with $2 except for a macchicken burger or maybe two cups of teh. haha. so that's mothers for you. but they're just concerned la.. haha. so. thanks mum. for errr.. nagging. LOL.
@12:02 AM
wow.. it's been rush hour miiaannn.. i rushed from school back home after getting an sms from khai saying that there's training today. had to leave class early. den rush from home to airport i literally ran man.. den i ran from T3 to T2 man.. =.= BUUUUTTTTTT I WASN'T LATE. i was like.. praying.. GOD!!! should i alight at T3 and run??? den i felt He said YES. and i kept asking again and again to confirm and i really felt that i should so i RAN and i was EARLY. WHOOOTS!! praise the Lord and yes im typing lik this cuz i just drank coffee though i dun like coffee and it's 12.05am now and im only just STARTING to have my dinner.. =.=
sooo.. yepp.. i plan to finish my photoshop assignment.. (yes, i havn't colour my stupid butterfly. =.=) and my illustrator Mtv logo(yes rongking and whoever else, it is still "under construction") i plan to change to candy shop. got the design down already. and i plan to go to school early to finish my audacity.. and HOPEFULLY i can finish my after effects final SO i can go for my final Gen1.4 cell core meeting before moving on.. whoooots! i must be SUPER WOMAN. (yes im still high on caffiene even though i stoned for half an hour after drinking my coffee) lols. and i am a Starbucks barista who DOESN'T appreciate coffee.. though i like the smell. XD
oh yea! i made my Javachip on my own today and though i dun like coffee, guess wad. i added too much mocha syrup and it tastes like coffee not javachip.. =.= ok.. now to settle photos and chiong.. i'll kill to get some sleep now.. though my eyes are wide awake due to the caffiene.
quote by caiyun: i am not a STONER. i'm a ROCKER. LOL
Wednesday, September 10, 2008 @12:47 AM
new blog skin.. i just got corrected by J. shall not name who.. but well.. it's for me to learn.. sooooo.... yea.... haha. LEARN LOR. (: i shall take it that it's not personal.. soo... :D
Tuesday, September 9, 2008 @11:39 PM
new song i got from junyong by alan paul. real nice. (:
She is the poster child for the faceless and she'll go down in history as forgettableShe'd love it if she could fly but it doesn't work that wayShe'll never be on the silver screen but you'll never see her cryShe's an angel and she's got her song for singing and she's got her dancing shoes onShe's more than a face or a star on the walk of fameShe's the reason Jesus cameShe's writing a book she'll call the least of these and it's an autobiographyShe may be an orphan here but she's gonna have her dayShe's an angel and she's got her song for singing and she's got her dancing shoes onShe's more than a face or a star on the walk of fameShe's the reason Jesus cameShe's you and she's me and the man at the corner store and the people next doorShe's fine with her place cuz we're all just leaning on grace and she has no shameShe's the reason Jesus cameShe's an angel and she's got her song for singing and she's got her dancing shoes onShe's an angel and she's got her song for singing and she's got her dancing shoes onShe's more than a face or a star on the walk of fameShe's an angel and she's got her song for singing and she's got her dancing shoes onShe's more than a face or a star on the walk of fameShe's the reason Jesus came
@10:50 PM
lols. my lappy is lagging. super not good. hmmm.. i dun like DMfun. it's like. i cant keep up and i think that the lecturer is super irritating. his vioce makes deaf children cry. T.T but anyways. im gonna move on to a new cell. which means.. CHANGE. well.. no one likes major changes as it plucks us out of our comfort zone. but i think that although it will take me time to adjust, i prefer it this way. i can do so much more for God in gary's cell. (not gary ho)
more responsibilites, more work. but i guess that it's worth it. hmmm.. i wanna learn the piano and master the guitar.. im super impatient sia.. =.= plus i wan $MONEY$ to go for mission trip and i heard that my class is going to GENTING. oh man oh man.. i wanna go!! i hope that it's not over the weekend. i wouldnt miss church for the world. but yea.. think im gonna sign up to be a camp instructor on top of working at SB. good pay as well as fun.. yep. think to straighten out my thoughts. been having a mental breakdown. brain died at the start of this stupid module. very sibei sian. =.=
Tuesday, September 2, 2008 @11:04 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR JASMIN DARLING!!!!
lols. went to celebrate at 201 eat as a family. lols. so cool.. although expensive, it was worth it. haha. yiling and caiyun are SICK little people. (:
blowing BUBBLES is fun.. (: too bad i lost all my ahs photos. used to play in class and irritate people while they're studying. oh well. (: got my new mp3. super cute. hehe. love my blog song.. (:
POINT OF DIFFERENCE
The tide is turning This is redemption's hour In the midst of the world lost for love You are all we have now The lost returning Salvation is all around In the midst of the world broken down You are all we have now For You are God and this hope is ours So Father open the skies Flood the Earth with your light This is love, to break a world indifferent Sing Our hearts are burning The fire that won't burn out In the midst of a world that's grown cold You are all we have now The earth resounding The anthem of your renown As we lift up our eyes And look to your glory Call us out let the world see You are God and this hope is ours So call us out, let the world see You are God as we sing Open the skies Flood the Earth with your light This is love to break a world indifferent As we lift up our eyes Fill our hearts with your fire In a world the same we'll be the difference, the difference So call us out let the world see You are God and this hope is ours Our eyes are open Every chain now broken In this world we are different Let your love become us As we live to make you famous We're in this world but we are different So call us out, let the world see You are God as we sing Father open the skies Flood the Earth with your life This is love to break a world indifferent As we lift up our eyes Fill our hearts with your fire In a world the same we'll be the difference, the difference So call us out let the world see You are God one and only In this world you are all we have now
paddle pop at midnight rocks. hahahahaha.
and you are still an idiot.
lols. i was listening to in christ alone by brian littrel. it's really nice and ecouraging. haha. ok. today, i showed that lecturer alan my mtv logo, with the theme "under contsruction" and he said, "it's not complete" i replied "because it's under construction" and he gave me that look.. den he looked at cheryl's screen. =.= she same theme as me. IM EMOIFIED. HAHA.
yep. nthing more haha
Monday, September 1, 2008 @8:05 PM
played bball today when i ws supposed to do the Mtv thing for my school. it was fun la. kept blowing bubbles at nicholas. muahaha.
the basketball court seriously reminds me of the elias court sia. there's someone that reminds me of tarzen, of the maha brothers, and gary. and guess wad, there's someone called gary also, and he also looks 60% like gary ho. why 60%? because gary ho is far better looking. LOL. but wa. it gives me memories. both good and bad. and i dun wanna get involved in another basketball court thing again.
so yep. back to work and playing bball at night instead. to avoid all these people and unnecessary trouble. made some frens though. (:
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i wonder why on earth do i trust you when everyone's telling me that you're lying. after all that had happened, i cant let it go just like that. im not the same anymore cant you see?!?! why does all these seem so hard. just when ive gotten everything figured out and im going alright, you pull me back into the same situation.
and all i can say is that. i feel sorry for her. i thought you've changed. but you're still the same. what can i possibly say now?
@1:39 AM
yiling just showed me a blog post. well, i just couldnt help myself from thinking. from the time my brothers beat each other so bad that they started bleeding in front of me, to the time my dad chased my big bro out of the house with a sword. den my dad threatened my mum for a divorce.. all too many things that have happened. the most traumatic was that my mum threatened to kill herself and she ran out of the house.
and there i was emoing..
when someone doesnt even have a mum to disturb,
to irritate.
the times when i behaved like a childish spoilt brat complaining that my dad didnt give me money and i was stuc at orchard road when it was my fault in the first place.
all seemed. so mediocre and childish.
how silly of me.
the bible says to honour your parents.
and that's what im gonna do.
btw. this is SEVEN, every sunday 1pm at the Cornerstone. haha. wanna come tell me. it's basically just my church service. would really like it if more people can come. haha. and this "sculpture" is 8 levels!! haha. for this, kenneth owes me a drink. XDdid this during my usher duty.. hahaha.