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Thursday, July 31, 2008 @11:33 PM

lols. today is kangling's birthday! haha. ok la. matthew was late once again as usual. so i went to school first. den had normal class. just that we did this exercise, to write something about everyone in the class on a post-it and paste it on the person's back. was quite fun.. i got alot of "holy" and "jolly", "jovious", "enthusiastic". haha. the most shocking was "gentle" YES!! haha. den again.. wad is holiness unless it is in the eyes of God. i guess im not worthy of that title.

ok. den we went to watch The Mummy. it was.. not bad i guess.. the story line was fine to me. just that, they tried too hard to be funny bah.. haha. well. i should watch more movies and tv since im in MOI. haha. nothing much i guess. im sleepy. im still affected by those urban legends. crap sia. cant sleep well. BUT IT'S OK!! haha. tmr will be a better day.

if growing up means being apart from You, i'll rather not grow up

if being successful means sacrficing You, i'll rather be a failure

even if things dun go right, i know that i still have You by my side.

i wanna live and die for bigger and greater things.

things that You would be proud of me.

i love You Daddy.

i will grow up loving You. (:

Tuesday, July 29, 2008 @11:20 PM

ok. been having some horror stories-circulation in school, making everyone superstitious and freaked out. oh man oh man. including me. the older i get, the more timid i become. BUT WE'RE MEANT TO BE OVERCOMERS AND CONQUERERS IN CHRIST!!!! it's ok. haha. i'll get over it. I AM BRAVE. (: but it has been fun. played bball ytd and today

went for the interview today.. the lady said.. "doesn't mean that getting the interview = you getting the job." quite sian. kinda need the job bah. the main problem is my weekends not free. BUT. i will not give in. i wanna go church. had a good talk with matt on the way home. lols. best frens forever la. but. wa. sibei sian. that aaron paotou me. i now very sian. i dun wanna lose a fren..

please God help me to live for you. help me to guard my heart and not fall again. but even if i do fall, i will still love You because i know that You will lift me up again.

Monday, July 28, 2008 @11:21 PM

ok.. first day of creative story telling. was.. ok i guess. quite funny. weetao's fren sat beside me cuz she is taking this module as an elective. haha. anyways after class went to eat den play bball.. arrrgggghhhhh IM SCARED OF YANJUN PLEASE STOP PUSHING HIM TOWARDS ME OR ELSE I WILL FREAK OUT OK. T.T

emoified. he keeeeeeeeeeppp talking to me i dun like. lols. he complain his slipper jialat when my slipper really broke on the way home just now.. and yea.. i had to buy new slippers to go home from Tmart. bought winnie the pooh slippers from 7eleven. so dumb. nvm. ANYWAYS i got the job at Nebo!!!!!! YEAAAAA BYE BYE ARANDA i'll officially quit after the chalets. (: but in the meantime i'll still work there la. haha. $7 an hour wa shiokness. plus more slack and more fun.. CAN'T WAIT. going for the interview tmr. iiimmmmm ssssoooooo hhhaaaaapppyyyy!!! XD

went for prayer meeting. was real good. but.. i play guitar until my legs were super tired and my fingers almst cramped up.. hahaha. so ivan took over. (as always) went for dinner.. went home.. thats when my slippers gave way.. looked so retarded dragging my feet over to 7eleven to buy slipper den go home.. WHICH i realised that i hve extra NORMAL slippers at home.. emoified once again. but anyways. to keep myself from feeling too embarassed, i called matthew to talk.. and he is SOOO irritating. =.= <= note the irritated face with eyebags. nvm. go see urban legends now. T.T stupid matthew.

Sunday, July 27, 2008 @10:55 PM

ok. it's sunday. the BEST day of the week for me. (: glen got back from the army on fri. so we went to eat buffet today. went to church first.. woke up late.. i seriously think i have a very bad sleeping problem. hahaha. anyways. the service.. was impacting. i wanna live a different life.. man.. i always say this on sunday.. but it's different this time. i took action! i will give up on gary.

anyways. this is a photo entry. (: went to downtown early. so went to walk around with my mum. booked aranda chalet.. like.. finally can.

then, i saw the bracelet i wanted.. and since i needed a watch and my mum was beside me....... :D smiles for me and a hole in the pocket for my mum. XD

the watch is hand-crafted sandwood with genuine leather.. the bracelet is just beads. haha.. the watch costed $52 while the bracelets costed $5 in total. (: den we went to eat sakura as a whole family.. went home, then went to accompany my mum to send my brother to army camp.. wanted a leather bag. but my mum say BHG got sale.. soo... qian jiu ta.. just go there. in the end, dun have the design that i wanted. so we went back to downtown. so funny can. my mum kept suaning me. wadever la. anyways, i got my bag!! 3rd grade leather. was $169.. but cuz they moving out, it was $89.. but we got it for $80. (:

ok.. den we got home.. after my mum and dad raced on the PIE.. quite dumb.. they kept competing who faster cuz they cold war. =.= (my dad driving company van, my mum on her own car.) ok as i've said, i will get over gary. because, freedom is a choice. i wanna be free from this and i dun wanna hurt anymore..
ok.. these are the things that meant the most to me.. why? because they all are related to gary. a mug he gave me, a watch he bought back for me from a cruise, a wire scupture of an electric guitar we bought at china town, a wire keychain of a girl and he has the boy part, a black and red-pill ear stud and a cardigan that he bought for me. i guess. subconsciously, these things do affect me. i treasured these with my life. but to let go of gary. i have to let these go too.
so.. i've decided to trash them.

extreme.. but necessary. these photos are proof that i trashed them..

anyways, drawingess is over but amanda ma encouraged us to keep a sketchbook diary. so i went to look for a new sketchbook. apparently, i found having diary with a white sketchbook using black ink was boring.. sooooooo......

i got a BLACK BOOK. haha. literally. XD
this is the front page..
to prevent myself from idolising work, i wrote bible verses as the border on the right side of every page. hahaha. well.. train me to draw in pen. plus, white ink on black paper stands out more as compared to black ink on white paper. soooo.. yea. THAT'S ALL. new module tmr. cant wait. (:

FUNNY BASKETBALL!!!!! XD go watch. it's hilarious. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0GeSNSHpKCE

Friday, July 25, 2008 @4:20 PM

yiling stayed over at my house last last night. so cool. watched youtube all that.. den chiong drawingess. wa.. i only started to really chiong 2 hours before school started cuz i was distracted and i kept dozing off. i think i have a very bad sleeping problem.. when i woke up, i asked yiling why she never wake me up..
alina: yiling!! why you never wake me up sia.. -.-
yiling:i did wad..
alina:really meh?
yiling:yea!! i said.. "alina.. wake up.."
alina:den wad did i say?
yiling:you said "huh die liao die liao" den you went back to sleep.
alina. -.- are you serious??

something lidat. cant really rmb.. lols. plus i slept for 14 hours today.. double of wad a normal human needs. haha. anyways.. ytd was the last day of drawing ess. happy yet sad la.. it was very fun.. but im just glad i completed everything.. i think i will be happy with a pass. did my best liao.. though i kept dozing off. die la. haha

went to watch prom night with jy, yt, ly, cy, kl, mh, xm, kl and rk. HAHA. all initials. it was.. scary.. but ok la.. cuz my eyes were closed at all the scary bloody parts. haha. they say not scary one. lols. anything la. den eat subway.. play arcade.. den.. matthew happened to be at tm also cuz he celebrating his fren's birthday.. say wan send me home.. wait for him in the end never send. piang eh. nvm. HE IS NOT A MAN. HAHA. jk. anyway met shiling also.. which turned my whole mood around.. she told me that she saw gary and his new girl.. den gary had his arms around her lehhhhhh!!!! at the front part of their steading.. T.T den i very sad. also dunno why. until this afternoon still very sad lor.. cuz i dreamt that he wan me back. so dumb of me.. GAHHHHHHHH. nvm.

had a GREAT time with God this morning.. and i've realised that i felt soooo.. not right without reading my bible and spending time with Him. i cannot do anything right.. can't even think right. and.. the more i get close to Him, i realised that i can't live without Him. i dunno. being with Him. is 1000000 times better than with gary but sometimes i just tend to forget.. nvm. super long entry. CHEER UP ALINA. lols. encourage myself looks so wrong but IT'S OK. haha. going jogging now den go work at 6pm.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008 @12:05 AM

this is lame.. getting my feeling mixed up all over again. gary msned me. (so weird) and gave me a youtube link and said that he hope that i like it. (http://youtube.com/watch?v=Wwt7T6PXW_w) well. it's weird. i guess he sent it to the wrong window. changed his nick one more time to: anything sms me i predict com crash) soo... dun care. trying not to care.. time to chiong drawing essentials again.

Sunday, July 20, 2008 @11:09 PM

that's my cry.. i guess. living the life is not as easy as i thought it was. im gonna make a stand for wad i believe in and live a life of purity. been missing gary a whole lot.. been freaking out recently alot too. set my alarm at 8am and thought that i could have 8 hours of sleep. but i woke up at 10.30. took a cab down to church. amanda and her bro came and received Jesus. yay! new siblings in Christ. went home at 8pm, changed, met nicholas with jiawen and his sis , played bball. angel came but those @#$%^ played full court match den we cant play. haha. so we went to mac.. bought some stuff at a mini mart, went back to the bball court only with angel.. played more and sent her home.. den went jogging again. i guess. too much sugar intake and hyperactivity. hmmm..

i guess, i think alot when i jog. haha. (i hardly think sometimes) and. i just wanna live my life for Jesus. i miss gary, that's true.. i wanna talk to him too and be with him. but it's not gonna happen. so.. i can stop dreaming and get on with life.. need more time again.

i need You, more than words can say
more and more each day.
Jesus i love You
i need You, more than life itself
Jesus i will worship You forevermore.

hmmm.. just to end off. "i love you" is far deeper than just three words. it takes action.

Friday, July 18, 2008 @11:25 PM

ok. BAD DAY AT WORK. but GOOD DAY AT SCHOOL. last day of photography today.. so so so so happy can. managedto clock in 5 drawings in my skecth book today.. but i didn't really do a good job at the location drawings. the more i push myself to draw, the more i actually enjoy it. im so gonna take animations. i hate photography though i thought that i liked it at first. i prefer to draw. haha,

anyways, got scolded by TWO members today.. the first one was my bad. i apologised and she commended me on my drawings.. (i was drawing at work) apparently she likes art.. so yea. got a new job offer by a member today too. :D go sell clothes. man my supervisor and alot of other people are quitting. very sian. loads of newcomers though. CHRISTINA IS THE BIG SHOT IN MSC NOW. MY GOODNESS. MSC WILL CRASH. jk. haha.and now, im expected to answer phonecalls. like a crap can. I DUN EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAY. the moment i answer never say anything tio scolding liao. HOW NICE. haha. but nvm la. I LEARN HOW TO TAKE IT IN AND CONTROL MY ANGER. anger management 101: let people scold you and still smile back at them.

mayyong sms me just now. just got a revealation that.. we dun need or rather God doesn't need more converts. as in. what's the whole point right?? what's the whole reason for coverting to Christianity?? (oh man, so controversial.. BUT WHO CARES) God wants transformed lives. we are only truly changed when God does a work in our lives. what's the point of converting when you are not even serious? that's the reason why i dun force people to come to church and receive Christ. i believe in decisions. i believe in making decisions.

ok. today, gary changed his msn nick.. FINALLY. this time.. he just put a "." and no pm.. no more "you are always on my mind" and no more dp of him and his girl.. instead, he put a pic of him and his classmates. well, i wonder what caused the change. he never liked taking photos. he always claimed that he's not photogenic. well... im out of his life. but still, he's still not out of my heart.. yet, im not gonna ruin his life again by stepping in it one more time. haii.. i miss him so badly.. i guess im still letting it go.. i need more time.

super long entry.

Thursday, July 17, 2008 @7:22 PM

ok it's thursday.. been through the week lacking two days of sleep already. haha. guess im the only one in class bah. currently at work now slacking.. looking for things to draw in my sketch book BUT NO MOOD TO DRAW CUZ IM FREAKING TIRED. haha. got a good talk with newell on tues. went swimming with valerie after meeting up with angel ytd. (slept for 14 hours ytd so shiok) haha. but i didn't sleep at all last night..

i finished my work at 6am.. (which is the time my alarm rings everyday but i take one hour plus to wake up) so i wen to eat udong and prayed.. den i dozed off.. woke up, read my bible and went jogging to help keep myself more perky for the day. haha. was ok la. im glad that i dun owe any more assignments. BUT i only completed 5 sketches when we're supposed to do 40. im so dead can. haha. nvm la. JIAYOU ALINA DUN GIVE UP.

i guess going through certain things does make me stronger. and im thankful to God that He has taught me how to release my emotions, embrace them, and let them go completely to reach that stage of maturity. i guess it's a slow and painful process but i dun feel emo for a long long time now. haha. i guess it's cuz God has taught me how to deal with my feelings. though i still think of gary but that's not the point. haha. JIAYOU! next module will be SLACK yay praise God. finally i can get some rest. hehe. so for now chiong all the way and do my best.. which means more sleepless nights. TMR IS THE LAST DAY OF PHOTOGRAPHY YAY. im SOOO happy can. haha. nvm la. I DID MY BEST. SO PRAISE JESUS AND GIVE HIM ALL THE PRAISE. XD ok back to slacking at aranda. so long nv work i forgot how to close.. =.= aiya nvm la. haha

Monday, July 14, 2008 @12:50 PM

ok. IM REFRESHED! came back from a weekend full of God. :D though i was DEAD tired. went to take photos of zone meeting non stop. den sunday go All Saints' Church to take their CHINESE service. my goodness. i understood la.. but i got lost at some parts. den took pictures of my own church's Rad Sunday. cool sia. the hip hop group was COOL. (: den went to eat swensens and with caiyun, minghan, xianming and kangling. den went to watch movie without caiyun. watch Hellboy II was quite nice la. one sentance struck me "do you need the whole world to like you? or do you only need me to love you?" wow. i guess it's the same for God. all we need is the love of God. no matter who we are, wad we do. anyways, IM DONE WITH MY PHOTO PROJECT! more than 700 photos over the weekend. (alot are junk shots taken by the boys in my church)

it's tough caring for someone with major insecurity. i dunno. God's teaching me to be patient and to love bah. NOW i know how my leaders and frens felt when i was super insecure. yes. sheep problem again.. haii.. she thinks that we dun wan her all that. say that no one told her that she's no longer a part of the cell. but wad sia.. she's STILL PART OF THE CELL. =.= goodness. so i explain and blah blah. den she very rude and say say say back.. qian da kia. den just be patient lor.. sian1/2. hai. i guess one mistake can affect someone so much. just because i kept forgetting to sms her den now i dun sms her liao cuz she always sat got cca. I HAVE TO CHANGE AND KEEP SMSING HER BAH. i guess as a shepherd i have not been trying hard enough. (i know this because ive been very busy with school)

anyways. i told her ALL the things that happen last sunday that shows that we still care.. like when she sat on my seat when i was away (the audi was packed out ytd), i shifted my bag away and sat on the floor. THEN SHE STILL DUN UNDERSTAND. wa piang eh. nvm. come on alina.. love is patient, love is kind.. JIAYOU. now she's reflecting (or so it seems) hopefully God will reveal something to her bah. praying hard.

Friday, July 11, 2008 @11:13 PM

was a LONG day today. felt bad in the morning cuz i woke up late den matthew went to class with 3 strangers. haha. went for consultation. newell helped me collect my 3 index prints. which costs $10 each.. and each consultation we must have 100 pictures = 3 index prints. total got 3 consultations = $90 pocket got hole again liao. must wok harder. plus today is nicholas's birthday HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICHOLAS MY FREN FOR 10+ YEARS! YOU WILL BE A PIG NOW AND FOREVERMORE!! haha. ok. frens since pri 1. cool hur.

photo shoot with newell.. was very paiseh cuz i was wearing a freaking dress. but nvm la. wan help den help all the way, dun leave it hanging. den went for the waiting or dating class. which was very awkward also cuz newell sit beside me den everyone was like.. ehhhh??? hahaha. den newell went to eat at Ashton's though he trying to save money. so funny.

learnt alot at the waiting or dating class today.. wow. i've never felt so.. wow for such a long time. throughout the whole class, i kept thinking of gary. as in. i finally know what's been going on.. the fights and arguements that we over superficial and meaningless things, the hurt and the pain after each meeting and the carnality of the whole relationship. hai. i guess. it was all infatuation. i DID put in my best though. ive tried to please him, give in to him and all. i guess we're just not meant to be. time to move on la alina. stop thinking of him all the time. something struck me about love. it is the mature acceptance of imperfection while infatuation is the idealism of love (thinking that everything will go out fine). loving someone=accepting him or her for who she is, despite her flaws and weaknesses. infatuation=eeee. ure not perfect for me, let's break up. i guess thats wad has been going on. there's a saying that to find your Mr. Right, first be a Mrs. Right. you cant expect someone to be perfect for you when you're not perfect for them. it's unfair.

another thing that struck me was that love must be shown. have i been showing love to the people close to my heart? my sheep, my family, my close frens.. this.. really made me think. what have i been doing? nobody is perfect. we can't expect perfection though we CAN work towards perfection. God's love is neverending. the bible says. "husbands, love your wives just like Jesus loved the church and gave His life for the church". loving someone means laying everything down for the person, so that that person will feel happy. love is not about me, myself and i, but rather, wad would my man want? wad can i do to please him? wad can i do to make him happy? it's no longer i but Christ who lives in me. God never had any "i do something for you so i can have something back" mindset.

Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up;
Does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil;
Does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth;
Bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away.
(1 Corinthian 13:4-8)

the best passage of love. in the eyes of God. finally going to church tmr. FINALLY! im sooooo happy. i miss the people, the surroundings. especially the presence of God. im getting more passionate for Him. im getting my fire back. thanks to newell bah. fellowship does build the family of God up. (please dun xiang wai hor. me and him = nothing going on)

Thursday, July 10, 2008 @11:23 PM

MY BRO IS GOING TO THE ARMY TMR!!! and i didn't know! haha. good and bad news. house will be very quiet. (two bros in army) good news is that my mum can sleep in his room and i can have my room to myself again.. (super sian can. wan do work also got people keep talking to you den must do things quietly and softly so as not to disturb her.. wan scream and shout when pek chek or play guitar r talk to fren on the phone while doing also cannot.) but then my mum say that his room no aircon very hot.. =.= feel like moving to my bro's room den let her sleep my room lor. at least she happy and i happy. got privacy.

photography + drawing essentials is killing me. im dead tired. im going to sleep after i transfer my pics.. i need God. im dying la. feel so far away from Him. i need His presence. took a few photos of the church today. mostly i not using. maybe one out of the hundred i took. cuz got no people. got access to All Saints' Church already. (: will be sitting in on their morning service and take photos during their praise and worship and sermon. den take pictures. (: den sat got ZONE MEETING!! gosh. got admin stuff to do I HAVNT DO. nvm i go do after blogging. den Nuben Gents (dunno how to spell) is coming! they are a hip hop group from america that were ex gangsters. powerful testimonies. they were the opening act for hillsongs for many years now.. this event will bring many people to know Jesus and will help in my assignments. (: happening sia. PICTURES!

me and my bro! :D

best shot of the day.

i like this one also haha. XD

ok la. not so bad.. but today only choosing one out of 100. the rest i collate on sat and sun. BEST (:

Tuesday, July 8, 2008 @10:24 PM

haha. i guess it's a habit to blog everyday now. woke up late for school. again.. thanks to matthew and xianming for calling me or else i would have slept until it's time for photography. haha. dunno la.. it's been an ok day.. CHEER UP YI LING AND JIA YI! CAN ONE DE! got back our assignments today. got a B. told my bro and mum when i came home.. this is how the convo went:

ken: how on earth did you actually get a B for photography? it's soooo easy
me: you think so easy you do la. you know nuts about photography still say
ken: it's not about knowing the camera.. great photographers are idiots and yet they still made it big.
me: they may be idiots at school but geniuses in art. PLUS they knew what they were doing
ken: aiya you noob la. gimme your camera. i take for you and show you how it's done.
me: is it on auto or manual?
ken: auto
me: set it on manual. den you happy go take.
*ken struggles but act pro*
*i go back into my room.*
*5 mins later*
ken: aiya. sandy (my dog) keep moving. give you back your camera.
*opens gallery, only one shot taken, lousy pic.*
*inserts =.="' face*

so this is called older bro act pro not pro. XD

Monday, July 7, 2008 @11:05 PM

ok. went to Little India to take more photos today. i woke up late cuz i was seriously worn out.. i guess it's cuz not feeling well. slight pains today only.. nothing compared to ytd. haha thank God. seriously i think my photos and drawings CMI. 0% confidence in these modules. i guess if i pass i happy liao. hmmm.. highlight of the day was the prayer meeting.. though i came late. had a good chat with xiao ming. well.. im tired of being dry.. i need more of God. im going crazy. seriously. i can't keep up with the modules laaaaa. =.= dying in progress.. but anyways THANKS XIAO MING FOR YOUR ENCOURAGEMENT. (: really appreciate it. lets work hard towards our dreams bah.

i would rather live an idealistic life than a pragmantic life.. i wanna dream dreams. i wanna hope for things that are near impossible. i dunno. I WANNA CHANGE THE WORLD. i know i can if i try. even if one little thing makes a difference, i wanna do it. time to stop being lazy. step out of my comfort zone and start impacting like how i used to. i wanna do wad Jesus would do. i wanna hear God like i used to. i wanna cry for what people hurt for. i dunno. i wanna go back to myanmar. i wanna make a difference. no matter wad. even if it costs my life i wanna go back and DO SOMETHING.

well, im tired of being misunderstood. misunderstand if you all wan bah. im lazy to explain myself. haha. quite lame la.

QUOTE OF THE DAY: the best way to change people's attitude towards you, is to change your attitude towards them first. (:

Sunday, July 6, 2008 @8:37 PM

ok. i woke up at 4.30am.. to PUKE. my goodness. non stop for 12 times or maybe a bit more. funny thing is that i was dreaming of featrice's name den i woke up and puked. HAHA. dunno la. den the 2nd time i puked, i felt extreme pain. sibei pain can. so i went to wake up my mum.. den i cry like some mad dog. den my mum tell me shut up. haha. so funny. den at about 5.30, i was sent to the hospital. sms-ed a few people. my church leaders first. den featrice thought i prank her! LOL. anyways, A&E service stinks. i think by the time a real emergency comes, they would be dead. made me wait on the chair for one hour den ask me wait on the chair for a few more hours bfore i can go home.. so my mum just told them that we go home.. so i sort of must go back after 3 days for followup. well, basically the doctor injected me TWICE on the same spot. say pain only like ant bite BUT WHICH FREAKING ANT BITE SO PAIN ONE??????? =.="' den he nv put plaster. so when i woke up,my sleeve had various spots of blood.

anyways. slept immediately when i went home. the injection did help la. (: sleep until 6pm. =O den i went to pray den continue taking photos. HAVNT STARTED DRAWING!!

monday: drawing essentials 10 thumbnails

tuesday:drawing essentials A3 sketch of my room

Little India 40 photos, My Neighbourhood 40 photos

Thursday:15 sketchbook drawings.

anyways, i only completed 2 sketchbook drawings, and my neighbourhood thing, which is not printed. im dead. :D i got mc for tmr. but i think i'll still be going to school.

Saturday, July 5, 2008 @4:56 PM

i didn't go to cell or gen prayer meeting today.. last night after PSI, i had a very bad pain in the stomach - gastric. den i felt nauseous and had a headache. plus i had to stand from katong back to tampines which added on to the discomfort. well, the moment i alighted from tpjc, i couldn't take it anymore so i went to sit at the bus stop.. desperately wanting to hold back my vomit which i managed to.. den i realised that i couldnt go back home on my own in this state. so i called xianming.. but he was at work. lao pa happened to be at 201 so he came over. in the meantime, i sms-ed elisha to pray for me. he only replied when lao pa came. so i told him that i was still at tpjc. he was shocked and he happened to be reaching that area so he came also. den i felt ba cuz lao pa came for nothing. after elisha prayed for me, i felt much better and i walked home with him . praise the Lord. when i reached home, i thought that i would be much better, but it was otherwise.

when i got into bed, i rolled in the bed in pain for one and a half hours before i finally managed to sleep.. woke up late so i couldnt go for gen prayer.. smsed junyong that i couldnt make it.. at first, there was no pain. then, after a while, the pain came back.. den struggled again lor.. xianming sms me say he wan buy cam at funan. dden i told him i not feeling well. decided not to go for cell cuz really very pain. after i prayed, i slept again den he pei me go doc. that's when i got the shock of my life. the doctor told me that if i have black sai or blood in my sai, i have to be admitted into the hospital immeditely because that meant that there is an ulcer in my stomach and it's bleeding. which made me more afraid because i did rmb seeing black stools. dunno la. so many assignments to submit then this happen.. like a sian sia. but anyways i regret not going for cell.. maybe i'll go join them for dinner. but it's already 5pm. =.= dunno la. God help me.

Friday, July 4, 2008 @6:08 PM

wa piang eh. this weekend got alot of things to do lor. i wanna enjoy the presence of God and the fellowship with my family also cannot.. actually can la. haha. just set my priorities right. gonna lose sleep once again. finally had all three meals today.. :D anyways. this weekend got 12 drawings to be clocked in on sketchbook, an A3 drawing of my room, photography assignment on "my neighbourhood" and 10 thumbnails sketches.. =.= everything due on tuesday except for the skecthbook drawings on thursday.. gonna be out the whole day tmr and sunday.. monday got another photography excursion to Little India = very little time to work!!! haha. nvm la. honour God and He will honour us back (: anyways. going off to church for PSI (Post-Secondary Index) now den go home and draw. (: sayonara :D

Thursday, July 3, 2008 @11:03 PM

ok. went to amanda's class in the morning. miracle sia. lao pa reached the bus stop earlier than me. ok. was ALMOST late but wasn't. cool sia. mum made breakfast for me today. so good sia.. gan dong!! ok la. den bought pockey den go little india for photography. actually very tired only la.. den no energy to talk.. take pics.. had fun all that. was supposed to meet rachel ko but she pangseh. den supposed to meet peh and mary.. but i ate mac until i forgot the time. supposed to meet them at 7.30 at katong laksa but i boarded the bus at bugis at 8.50pm. in the end i went home lor. reached home at 10.10pm.

photography is SOOO not easy. but a great experience. had a good talk with faizal on the bus today on the way home. (: faizal and yan jun are good people. :D never judge people on the surface. haha. no offence though. anyways, pictures up on my new cam. :D

yes! it's me and a pole! :D

haha step pro XD

me and kester:D

geishaaaa!!

newell and me. (:

feat-rice!! cheer up girl :D

i like this pic (:

this man kept asking me to take a pic of him... =.=

stone....

newell take pic of me, i take pic of grass, cheryl take pic of me. haha. cool man

ok la. quite fun all in all. :D anyways. abit lost on something. LAME LA. dun think liao. sleep.

Wednesday, July 2, 2008 @8:28 PM

haha! got my new camera ytd with xian ming. THANKS XIAN MING FOR LENDING ME MONEY I OWE YOU ONE!!!!! :D ok. the camera cost $620, mum lent me $550, xianming lent me $80. SO, i plan to return them both cuz i feel bad lending money from my mum for my own personal use. i needed a camera for photography class yes, but i also wanted to use it for myself la. haha. WORK JIAYOU!! ok la. i got a canon S5is. which is real cool. brought it to school today to let people play with it in case they wanted to buy.
got my new BLACK specs today which really look like newell's and ming han's specs. =.= nvm la. haha. nerds are cool :D den went to watch basketball with lao pa den go buy bubble tea den go home. home early toay!! 7.45pm sia. first time in dunno how long. i wan quickly draw my sketches den go JAM!! i miss my guitar can. finally, a relaxing module. can jam and worship God properly. feels good. except that i've only been eating one meal a day since monday. sians. miss gary. shut up la alina. =.= ANYWAY, no splurging until end of the month. (: