Thursday, October 30, 2008 @5:59 PM
nothing much i guess. real happy that i finally met up with yuwen for bs today (thanks for coming down to tp(:) and im going to meet joana later. haha.dunno why. still feeling abit sot. not exactly sian, but just, relatively emotionless for the past few days. made another mistake ytd that i promised myself not to make. sometimes, i wish i was stronger. but somehow, yet again, it was emotionless as were the past few days. or maybe i've grown cold and immune to sin? or maybe, i', just going through a phase.sunday, i felt the presence of God so strong in my life. it was so amazing. it was how i was when i was in sec 2 and sec3. passion like a fire that never dies. how i wish sometimes that i was just like then. then again, sometimes, i don't. thinking of all the childish and unneccesary things i used to do in the past turns me off and yet makes me smile. these days, my mind is more of like a blank. somehow, the world is going past me real fast. and i don't seem to care for some queer reason. it's as though i'm lost in time i dunno why.last night, i dozed off on my bed after bathing and the lights were left on all the way till dawn as well as my aircon. which made me freeze. the weirdest part was, i was not even tired. and i didn't wish to wake up.hmmm.. why am i saying all these? maybe it's because i don't feel like talking much these few days (btw faizal is beside me and he says hi) and i feel more comfortable typing everything out.then again, i know that wordy stuff won't make readers wanna read so.. haha. but hey, don't worry. this is just a phase that im gonna get through anyway. somehow, i just wished that it was faster. and even as im typing this now, i feel some warm sensation deep in my heart and it's simply because i know that things will get better. because it's promised in the bible. and i know that God will make a way even if there seems to be no way. and no matter what i do, His love is unconditional that reaches to the heights of the highest heavens and the depths of the deepest seas. P.S. i have no idea what i just typed. (: off to meet my dear darling sweetie sugar sheepie pie joana. (omigosh that was so bimboistic but who cares. LOL)
