Sunday, November 23, 2008 @7:21 PM
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY DAWN!!!
yep. im supposed to be doing work now but somehow, i just, don't feel like it.. =.= the submission is tmr and yet i don't know how to start. been thinking of writing about carparks. but then again, i have this extremely weird fascination with playgrounds. been really sad after my favourite two playgrounds was demolished and replaced with extremely zen style playgrounds that aren't even fit for kids to play in.
alot of things have been on my mind lately. mainly about God. i need to go even further than this. i have my dreams, aspirations and passions laid down right before me but somehow, im leaving them there to rot and die. last sunday, i received a fresh passion, a fresh desire to press on and to move on. it's still burning in me and i don't ever want it to die out again. recently, i found out that someone who i really love, wanted to give up. somehow, someway, it just quickened something in my spirit that i need to do something about it. because, i can. i've never noticed how insignificance could demolish someone's self-esteem so badly and throw them into the pits. you know who you are. if there is something that i can do for you. i would, and i will.
the feeling of NOT liking anyone is SHIOK TO THE MAX DAWG!! i feel soooo set free. and it feels great. yeah, im too young for this. i wanna hang out with my friends and do the stupidest stuff in the world.
i know that i am called for greater purposes and greater callings. callings that even i cannot imagine. sometimes, i feel that im the most unsuitable person to be doing great things for God. given my family background and all, im just timid and afraid. i may be loud and retarded at times or maybe all the time (HAHA!) but looking back at how i've grown and all, im amazed at where i am right now. i would probably be dead right now if i didn't have Jesus in my life. but all that aside, what i truly want right now, is to see my sheep grow and mature into the women that God called them to be, glorious and shining brightly for His glory.
im coming out of this one-girl world and stepping out into the world where it's not all about me. my future is decided.
btw, cheryl and yiling stayed over at my house on thursday and friday. photos up! credits to cheryl. (:
