Tuesday, November 18, 2008 @10:38 PM
LOL. school's been fine. pretty slack.. been watching this channel on youtube. it's HILARIOUS. dunno why. probably it's retarded. ok. retarded is not a nice word to use. let's say silly (quoted from yokfong=,=) HAHA. dunno la. it's just funny.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PhlvZuwl_pc
anyways. it was a relatively bad week last week. but so far, it's been an ok week for me. God spoke to me on sunday. and i guess, it was a change of heart, attitude and all. have a new vision, new dreams and all. or maybe, it's just promises of old becoming clearer to me.
sometimes, i fear becoming a leader. all the responsibilities and the way you have to carry yourself. sometimes, i dun like it. but then again, it doesn't have to be that way.
so what if i like to smack people like cheryl to the wall whenever im walking beside her.
so what if i like to chase people like cheryl around the canteen though we're already 17. (HAHA IM STILL 16!!! =P)
so what if i like to lock people like cheryl out of the class.
so what if i like to whack people like cheryl for no good reason.
and so what if i like to be silly like cheryl at the worst possible time.
ANYWAYS, i think that being a leader is more than just stature and position. as in, these are important. but there's something more than that. it's about caring about your followers, loving them for who they are and bringing them to the full potential that God has called them to be. leaders ain't boring. they don't have to be. we have a life.
but above all of that, i wanna love God more and i wanna love my sheep more. (yes la yiling, u got goats and cows and chickens. u farmer la.) i think that it's all that matters for now. gonna share this saturday. and i guess that this will be a mark for me to rise up.
after all, a routine is only a routine when you make it up to be one.
God gave us freewill and a choice in every situation.
perfect love casts out all fear.
and all means, all.
