Monday, September 7, 2009 @1:43 AM
im still sick. coughed out blood on monday and having random fevers since. now there's no more blood but each time i cough, i feel super breathless. dunno whats wrong also. im going to the hospital later in the evening. and i feel kinda scared. the doctor told me that there are three possibilities to my illness.
1. throat infection
2. something to do with sinus
3. throat cancer
he told me that the third one is highly unlikely because i am still young and i don't smoke or drink. but there's still a possibility. i doubt that i will get it too. because i believe that cancer is a spirit.
anyway, i am very inspired and encouraged by so many people over this weekend. namely, austin, yokfong and joel. i have really learnt so so much from them despite the short time spent together.
my goal is to ensure that the people around me, namely my sheep, will feel loved at all times. because that's the only thing that i feel is the most important. there's just so much more of God. so so much more. and i want it. i want to reflect the love of Jesus at all times. and i believe that i will be healed in Jesus name.
